it's not my best, i've written so many better

before i compared my dull life
to being in a cage
i had it all wrong.


i was stuck in a reserve
for other animals like myself
first things first
she was taken by them
to another place was all i was told
torn from my side
abandonment
alone
no one else really mattered like her
suddenly i woke one morning
seeing another one staring me in the face
caught off guard
scared to wit's end
she jumps on me
out of nowhere
we wrestled
play fought
ended in much laughter

her fur was sleek and soft
her energy was up
i got lost in those eyes
so many times
couldn't find my way out
even when she'd return to her other
that's when i noticed i was really in some place new
a different reserve
life seen in a new hue

she came back so much
tugging at my ears
fell in love with her touch

stuck in a daze she put me in
loosing control of all impulses and life again
another one entered the picture
and her life rebegan

i felt lost and thrown aside
no one in that reserve liked me
an outcast amongst my own kind
even when she entered my life
i felt so lost
she tried to help me
i shrugged her off
i hurt that one too bad to be allowed to live
she walked away
leaving me behind
found herself someone she could confide in
of course she found the girl i feared most
the one who damned me to the darkest pit
to solely rot

at that time
the owners realized i was no good there
threw me into a cage they dared
locked the door and left me be
i paced and paced
after long enough i realized they only came by once a day
throwing me scraps of meat
some food to hold me over
that door never opened
it all got so monotonous
i'd try and try
but that lock would stick
so predictable
i longed for a touch
and bite
anything
i wanted someone who'd tackle me
who'd bite at my ears
nibble my neck
jump at me like a crazed animal
just to play

but here i'm stuck
in a cage
seldom are the visits
never any affection.