zoned student

life lessons slowly being relearned
i sit and hear the teacher speak for a turn
learn for the second
forget once i stop
looking at my arm in hope i burned the key to life there
directions on each lesson there
arrogent nature rams heads with the lessons i try to learn
released into the wild
my nature knows not how to react
never been here before
in this place
in this way
or maybe i have
and can no longer keep track

i lean to the others
everyone else in my pack
this new pack i wandered into
head looking down
afraid of attack
a whimper escapes
hoping it's enough of a hint
some laugh and chuckle
others maul it over for a quick second

just teach me this lesson
the one from my teachers
i didn't listen to them
but they explained too many broad details
i know i'm unhappy
please, fix it for me
but in the mean time,
please don't change me...

defenceless mother tree

go right ahead
think you can brand me
mark me up as the rest
stamp my forehead to match the rest
all of them
those wretched people "like me"
you wish we were the same
all alike for you to lable and catigorize
it'd be easier that way
rape the weakened defenceless
the tired from fighting back for so long
bury the bitch after the fights been taken out of her
hope the dirt muffles her cries
dig her up for show when you feel the need to exploit her
to reap the benefits she bares
the fruit on her withered branches
dress her like a queen
act as though you pay her the respect
once they turn their backs
you steal the respect back in a flash
ignore the gleam in her eyes
the pain you put her through
claiming it's for her own good
devouring her fruit
abusing limbs
tearing off branch after branch
just to beat her with them
laugh at the joke of her demise
laugh it all off
bury her again
dig her up only to reap her benefits.

inked

cover yourself in black ink
no inch of your true body may show
colored in black
absorb all
every blow to another
every tear of light the sun cries
every scream of the unshealtered and pained

every word i write
i write in ink
chisel in stone
never can it be simply washed away
leaving a mark never to be undone
shead the dried ink
save the broken ends
put them in a jar
air tight
never to be free
the burden becomes yours
you hide the problems from the world
find your own solutions
walk amongst the ones living this painful story you've shead
stand up and tell them all the end of the story you've predicted

lived through it all
absorbed them
felt their stories
been through the pain
defeated the horror of it all
swallowed the tears you feel on your cheeks
stood triumphant on the mound of the decaying corpes of truth
you broke reality
conquored it all
there's no way it could have happened
no way possible

i continue writing
in this ink
chisel in stone boulders no one can move
no one can ignore

cover yourself in ink
ever inch of you completely covered in the black ink
step out in the day
absorb it all again
shead the dried ink
examination once again begins.

torn minded

scream!
i don't care if you say you can't hear me
i'll still scream.

don't turn your back
don't ignore me when i speak
throw my ideas aside
abuse them
torment them
after i explain

no, no
sweet omega
sweet, scared, hurt, defenceless omega
listen to me,
they mean nothing
let your insides curse them
spit acidic words at them if you please
attack them and push them on their backs
they must stop and see they must look up to you
kindred spirit,
please look up
bear your teeth
allow the voices to let loose that snarl
let it echo in your scarred chest
fight back to them
this trial will be over soon
for them.


oh pleasant one,
dear and kind omega
walk with me
turn around and keep your nose down
they aren't worth your time
come and i'll help keep you safe
i'll defend you when the time comes
befriend me dear weak one
my exhausted friend
ask anything and i'll make it happen
you are not retreating from them
you are not making a fool of yourself
calm yourself inside
allow your troubles to escape in the breeze that blows through us
now,
bring your nose up
look at the world in this new color
with a different filter of the light
in a flash you see it all so different
this tint
this new color you see
you may see everyday if you want
stay by me
and find how relaxing your life can really be
see you don't need your teeth beared
you don't have to let the hate build up this snarl
this life is easier
this life is better
so chin up.


opening suddenly calmed eyes
the shadowy, murky grey blue eyes of the omega
tails between its hind legs
ears down and back as a sign or showing respect
closing eyes
turning swiftly from the others
it walks from them
one voice screams
one voice murmurs
screams for acts corruption to change their minds
murmurs for acts of peace to do part in fixing it all
one taunts, fills all with pain and horror
one tries to undo the hell that has broken loose...

another apology

bubbling acid wells up inside
tattered and torn from my own hands
a tear in my skin
can't stand feeling locked in
embarrassment stops me
self image contains me
a caged pet to you all
the ones who stroll past
looking in a laughing
snearing snub smiles
noses high in air
i end up ripping myself apart

i leave myself open for you
i jump out of myself to you
the soft interior to cousion your fall
laughing stock of the world once i realize i didn't help you
once i see i was too flimsy to save you
willpower less
not enough to keep you out of harm's reach
a soft heart below it all
crushed from being so weak
so spineless.