keep a chain on the locket

just like every other time
relocated
new area
yanked out into another life

i stop
pick up all the pieces
i promise you
i told you i'd stick through this
i'd find everything
and even if i didn't find anything
i'd give you all i have
sacrificial
anything to see that smile
see you love another
comfort you if you wanted
drop out of your life if you needed
anything for you

shattered heart
scattered pieces
i'll find every damn one of them,
so what if it's not easy
lost all of them?
they ventured off?
take mine quickly
before everything dies and leaves you with nothing
let it warm you up
inside to outward

if i could take back every kiss
knowing my life would soon lead to this
i'd still kiss you everytime i did
give you everything i have
knowing you'd smile in the end

you say "everything"
it brings tears to my eyes
i can't let this happen
but my will means nothing
no matter how hard i cry
they don't understand
how could they?
the on and off wanting
needing
of 2 and a half damn years
to them is confusing
but honestly,
i've begun to not care the slightest about
the thoughts that belong to them

i wouldn't dare put you through this torment again
not lured away
not wandering off
a leash, connected to this collar on my neck,
is pulled taught
this isn't my doing
they can drag me away kicking and screaming
because it kills me knowing this happens
once i've become your "everything".