brainwashed

a tube stuck in my head
one down my throat
a thin one
stuck in my arm
an i.v. to keep the test subject alive.

eyes taped open
brace around my neck
holding me in place
stitch my arms and legs
keep me from leaving
from getting away

true it's no one else's fault
i should have ripped away
torn the skin from my arms
cut the skin from my legs
grabbed the tubes and pulled them away
fought to escape the hell you were going to put me in.


tradgic truth of this whole case
i was the one who sat in the chair
i was the one who followed your rules
i didn't stand up and argue the facts
i didn't fight back
repel those damn thoughts from my mind
i was too weak
afraid of pain
self induced, gut wretching pain

i let you change my mind
i let you form it
mold it in this way
i let you make me think it's bad to be me...